When Your Mind Wanders

In a society of a quick fix and instant gratification, I can’t help but wonder if this is the cause of my demise and bad decisions.

 I regrettably admit that I am a free spirit.  I always want to follow my heart, even when my head tells me, “don’t do it.”  My head always says, “I told you so…”

 I always look for the good in people, no matter how many times they’ve hurt me; and I have the glimmer of hope that they will one day have the best of intentions – even when the obvious glare of hurt and failure outshine any glimmer that could possibly exist.

I am always looking for an out – whether it be a new career, a new look, a new location to reside – a change of pace, and a change of scenery…I am hiding from my own demons.

I fully believe with all of my heart that fairy-tale romance exists in real life; even though I don’t know anyone who’s found it and had it last for more than 2 weeks…I won’t give that up.

I trust rarely – I can quickly count the people I trust with my secrets or my best interest. 

My heart hurts often, and I’m not quite sure why – my life appears in perfect order.

I can’t make my own decisions – I’m scared it will be the wrong one.  I guess there’s no way to really find out -

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